I am soooooooo sick

Actually I have been sick since last month, its nthg serious just severe headache and mild fever but its the frequency of its occurence thats serious. But it made me realise lot of things.

First thing I realises was however old you grow, u alwasy miss ur parents esp when u are sick or in deep trouble.I was just lying down with fever and headache yesterday, I wanted someoen to sit beside me hold my hand and say that I am going to be fine. Well its not like I have got some serious trouble, I will obviously get fine but how nice it wud be to hear that from someone. How nice wud it be if someone asked me every 30 min if I wanted sthg to drink or eat or if i was gtg bored and wanted to watch tv or listen to some music. When I was at home not only my mom wud do all this and my dad wud come home soon n sit n chat wid me. All the aunties who used to stay near my house wud also coem daily and see how I was doing. All of this made me recover sooner I guess bcoz I believe in the power of the mind. All these people made me so happy that i always got better very soon. And here I was yesterday , all i thot even in my dreams that I was going to die ( and all i had was fever)

Second thing I realised was my sweet n caring frds. They made my life so much easier n enjoyable. They were liek my family , they loved me , told me when I did sthg wrng appreciated me when i did sthg great. And when I was sick they did everything my mom and dad did for me. I never missed mom n dad even when i was sick. I was so lucky to have them. kalyani used to give me reiki and heal me, ashrita and maduri took care of my needs , sindu n soni wud sit n chat wid me and crack stupid jokes n make me feel lively. Deepti used to call me up n make so much fuss of me.Inder, pandu n kalyan used to call me up. I felt so loved n cherished.But kalyani I think is the person I need to thank more than anyone else, she always made sure i never had even little bit of problem. I was really fortunate to have them.

I wish I was with them again, but then life is a bitch. All this also made me realise that my parents are getting old and they need me to take care of them. they need me to sit with them n talk to them. My mom had a surgery yesterday and here I am sitting in USA. I really wish I was with her n shared her pain.

Well .....it is never too late ......

whats with birthdays n cakes???????

A typical bday .....wake up at 12 in the night .....blow the candles ( which tactlessly reveal your age to everyone) and then cut the cake put a piece in someone elses mouth and they put some in your mouth ......then the cake is smeared all over the poor bday baby s face and hair and wherever ur imagination takes you. This sometimes is accompanied with champagne , eggs milk ......well it can be anythig you want!!!!

I always thot all this is such a waste of resources and holds no meaning, and I still do. But what began to dawn on me is that people do this just to make the day a little special and memorable n fun!!! It is just a regular , uncreative and readymade method to do so. But friends , believe me this boring method is better than to do nthg ......better than to sleep the whole day bcoz u fell sick!!!

TIP FOR A PEACEFUL BDAY ...........never expect anything for ur bday ............behave like its just another day ............

well I am being very pessimistic here ........but honestly .......have fun on ur bdays.........bcoz its special ...........bcoz its one more reason to be happy abt .........do whatever u feel like ...........no matter what pessimistic people like me think!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

back after a long hiatus!!!

hello ..to who ever is reading this

I actually believed that I was the rudest, meanest and most inconsiderate person in the world. My friends , always supportive of me , dint support me on this. On the contrary they thot I was sweet and caring. I believed their opinion was biased. And I always made an effort not to hurt anyone , be polite and all that . However, I still cudnt stop myself.

But after a few years a si began meeting new people ....more n more new people .......it made see that there are people who are miles ahead of me in terms of being those horrible things I said above!!!! What can I say .....I was shocked ....well ....In a way I was happy that there are people worse than me ......so I am actually good if not better .......ok lets like quantify this issue so that veeryone has a better understanding. if zero is taken as refernece and anything below zero is considered rude ( the more negtaive u are the more rude or mean etc it is) and vice versa.

I was like just -1 and I thot i was horrible ..........but guess what ...there are people who are -20, -30 and -50. I implore these people to get their act together and start changing their behaviour, which brings us to why poeple are rude( to change sthg we shud know what is its cause ...)

Okay , we are generally rude to people when
(1) when we dont like the person
(2) when we dont like sthg the person says
(3) when u are just too arrogant to be polite

People .....if u dont like the person ......dont talk to them ....or if it is really necessary ..just talk socially and shut up!!!

and when u dont like sthg the other person says ........just say so ...voice ur opinion .....and there is one exception here .......if they are repeatedly being rude ...then thers no reason to hold back.....give them what they deserve ......

and to people who are too arrogant to be polite .......they say what goes around comes around .....so better be careful .......no one wnats to be treated badly .......its never too late .....so start being good and hopefully ......no one will treat U badly .....

Well I wrote this blog just to vent out my frustration ............no one has to actually follow what I said .........but honestly It never hurts to be good .......

okay